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I Didn^t Know Much
When I was young I really needed someone I didn^t have.
I didn^t know Jesus, I didn^t know God.
I didn^t understand them either.
I had only heard of them a little.
I had envisioned some semblance of them.
I didn^t know truth, well not much.
I knew the commandments of the Bible, at least ten of them.
I didn^t know anyone who obeyed the commandments of God.
When I was young I didn^t know what to do,
What to make of myself, what to become.
I didn^t know how to protect myself either.
I didn^t know the wiles of the Devil,
His destructive ambition, his evil intent.
I fell prey to some of his schemes;
Deception, sex, drugs, pointlessness.
By the time I tried to change my path, my fate, my intensions,
I found myself in a deep rut.
I didn^t know my friends from my enemies.
I didn^t give anyone a chance to help me.
I didn^t trust anyone.
I quit two universities.
I got kicked out of a third.
I didn^t know I had schizophrenia.
I left every friend and every girlfriend I had behind.
I left my family too.
I felt that I was above average in some ways;
intelligence, strength, ability, teachability.
I felt that I could make a living, pay my way.
I found out that I needed and wanted more than that.
I found out that I needed and wanted the Bible.
I found out that I couldn^t do it without Jesus and I didn^t want to.
I found out that I couldn^t do it without God^s church and I didn^t want to.
And I found out that I couldn^t do it without medication although I wanted to.
I didn^t know much but I^m making it.
Thanks be to God, I^m sure,
And His many blessings.
When I was young, I didn^t know enough to be a child of God.
June 12, 2015